A couple of weeks ago I wrote that I have been unable to run pain-free since last spring and that I started a new round of physical therapy at Focus Fitness. (see MAT to PAT http://wp.me/p1e1iu-6A ). Their staff is helping me to address the muscle imbalances I have developed by a series of exercises that activate weak or inhibited muscles. Every day I attempt to do these awkward exercises, concentrating to keep the right form and to activate the appropriate muscles. It is a definite mind-body exercise and I feel very foolish as I do them.
Of course, last week, I had to try a short run to see if these exercises were having any desirable effect. I hopped on to a treadmill and started first with a brisk walking pace and then pushed the pace higher to a slow jog. I quickly discovered that my left IT band and right hamstring continued to complain. I backed off the pace and stepped off the treadmill, disappointment hanging from my shoulders. I had hoped for some instant relief. But instead of running, I am back to the awkward exercises every morning and evening.
I continue to think there is a spiritual lesson for me to learn. How often do I treat prayer as an instant relief button, hoping that God will magically answer my wish? How often do I trust the process of praying patiently for God’s will to be done as I keep my focus on Jesus? How often am I disappointed when things do not turn as quickly as I envisioned?
Also I know that many people feel awkward when they try to begin a spiritual discipline of prayer or scripture reading. They are unsure whether their prayers are having the desired effect in their life or if they understand what they are reading. Just like I needed a therapist to help me identify and work the weak muscles, a small group or spiritual mentor can help us begin a new spiritual journey.
Is your spiritual journey flourishing, struggling or maintaining? Where do you discover Jesus?